“Pronto a partire?”
Are you ready to leave?
This is a question I was asked many times over the past few days.
However, before answering I would like to explain what I’m feeling, through an encounter I’ve had.
I haven’t seen Giulia for a long time, she has been a friend of mine for years and we’ve also been colleagues in a restaurant for a brief period.
We lost touch, without any precise reason, sometimes it happens, we just take different ways.
She shacked up with her boyfriend and I, well I managed to mess up my life even more.
Some months ago I made a pleasant discovery, she was pregnant.
A few weeks ago she gave birth to a beautiful baby, named Manuel, who’s really active and lively.
I really did want to meet her and her son before leaving, so one morning we went out for a cup of coffee.
I don’t deny that for one morning I’ve been the “borrowed father”, I received a lot of compliments and I certainly thanked for them.
You know, at the sight of a baby, many use to tilt their head and with their bright eyes whisper: “ooooh, how beautiful he is, congratulations”.
Anyway, in her, friend and now new mom, I saw something.
She was happy.
Sometimes tired, but of a gratifying tiredness.
She accepted the unexpected welcoming him in her life with open arms.
At the beginning she was scared, she didn’t knew what was coming or how she would have behaved, but she was filled with the desire of raising him at her best, with love.
You can receive some general advice, but no one will tell you exactly how to raise your son and the emotion that you’ll feel giving him birth.
Somehow, I’m not giving birth to any child, but I’m about to raise something that’s only mine, that belongs to me.
This creature is my dream and when someone asks me if I’m ready I say: “Of course not!”
How can you be ready for a journey of this scale?
No one teaches you how to complete it.
Of course I received a lot of advices, guidelines and I’m sincerely grateful to everyone for every kind of help.
But this will be my journey, and I’m the only one that will learn how to face it along my road.
So the answer is NO! I’m not ready! But I’m happy that I can give birth to this journey, working hard every day for making it amazing.
Thank you Giulia, wish you all the best.